I am utterly lost. I am confused. I don’t know how to feel, or what to think. I don’t know what I want in life, or where I am going, or what the point of even going on is. I know who I am, and that’s about it. People confuse me, schoolwork confuses me, things on the internet confuse me. Most of all, people, though.
A certain someone, I just don’t know how to feel about him, I suppose. We started off as friends, it progressed to friends with benefits, I started liking him, stopped liking him, we’re still considered “friends with benefits” but, we never do anything. He always tries to get me to “hang” with him, so we can have sex, but he lets me down every time. I look forward to it, but he always disappoints me. Something always “comes up” and he can’t make it, or he doesn’t answer my texts. I don’t know. I shouldn’t get all hung up over it, he’s a stupid boy, and I’m better than that.
